how can one be so determined to achieve sth?
i really really cant...
an F for econs. i ecpected that, but im still sad over that. was i laughing and smiling over an F? perhaps i was, but im not happy.
blahx.
i want to put in effort for that subj, but i know that i will end up with another failure and another one and another one...
i wont be as lucky twice rite!
almsot failed all my lit+ss, and best grade for that being C6 or so, and i got a B3 for o's for that subj.
i wont be lucky again.
luck is sth depletable.
i've depleted so much of my luck for my academic grades and for the many things in life. and im thankful for that.
but im not betting for more. there is not going to be anymore.
blahx.
i really feel like dropping econs.
every part of me tells me that i want to drop, and i really really want to drop.
but i wont. dunno whyzz....
YOU CANT DROP ECONS!!!then i wonder, why must i be so stubborn on sth? finding misery for myself...
nvmzz i will get over it. just a phasing phase isnt it?
sighx....
gp essay, gp package, ecosn essay, maths tut, chem tut, physics tut, gp arguements thingy.
most are due on wed. how how???
and so many things tt im obliged to do obliged to help...
sighxx....neways....while waiting for the burning process to finish..
i shall talk bout my dream...
super haunting lahzz...
that stupid sony ericsson phone, giving me so much problems and finally it gave me a bad dream bout it.
in my dream....it was somehow being nibbled on by some worms and i jsut cant eliminate that worn...eating non-stop! blahx, dunno wad so scary bout it, but the feeling was lousy....
sighx...think my dreams are gradually becoming black and white dreams...maybe that is somethign good. at least my brain wont need to work as hard to churn out some weird colours....
and that scrapbook i did...totally lacking of colours....save for the pink front cover...
i totally dun believe in horoscopes anymore!
today is suppose to be my "average" day... and my lucky number is 8, thats all i rmmber from the radio la...
but y din i get at least an 18/40 for econs? neither did i rmmber hearing 8 or seeing 8 anywhere, except for the lift button, which i punched one.
hmph!
