♥Tuesday
argh. i just wished i had gone jogging and never came back or sth. nv back to the bombardment of sms by this person n whole lot of crap. hah. let me bitch abit since the person in discussion here doesnt noe my blog...hmm...cant mention name anyway...but but! let me have some peace in studying la idiot, and not put me into difficult positions like this. lost all my appetite bcuz of tt person. bugger....today's dinner ld have been the best la! braised sea cucumber w chicken n abalone. and lotus soup and had some vege. delicious isnt it, but all ruined. darns.
bahs. on a lighter note...i noticed jogging has really been therapeutic. i would have been lethargic and all so frustrated with studying without it....
aights...and i've been taking on further routes nowadays! heee...used to think that running to clarke quay is far enough...then i ventured to esplanade park to sheares bridge and furthest being nicoll highway! heee....this so reminds me of Maslow's Hierarchy of needs versus ERG theory. these runs tt im having gonna fall into the self-actualization and growth part respectively. argh. that's so nerd talk.
aye...jess just came over. and she actually eats 2 bowls of rice when she is so slim! how envious. hahaha
everything was so much more peaceful before this. bleahx. study time.
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♥Saturday
alright...i ate my word...im cant resist blogging...especially when my brain is all sapped up from the horrendous essay writing thing. it's been a year since i've gone thru this torment, and yeah, 49%(as Phythian-Adams wld cite) are at a worse plight than me. but anyways....i'll go into this whole verbosity jargon thing when i get tired...and restless. hah. my vocab is really so limited now....was looking thru some of my sec 4 eng stuff and the lang i used, or at least tried to use, is so much more cheem than wads remaining of me now!
anyway...aft exams today....i finally saw judson, in real life tt is, and he shld remain on stage and be my idol. lol....cynthia's leg seem better alr...hope to see her back for training next sem or sth...then...on my way to rock gym...darn i shant continue w wad im gonna say...yippy ll scold me....hahha...anyways...climbed a lil aft tt...went to suntec w arif to collect e racepack (boy, i know u wanna go to sexpo...hahaha...bugger go and risk flunking ur exams. lol) the damn irritating thing tt kept happening today is tt pple r treating me to be invisible! they either think i'm a crippled, cant run or i'm an idiot who shant run. and pple din bother to even gimme the flyers! look down on the yellows? look down on the girl? hah. anyways i had my cinnamon swirl from andersen's ice cream after tt! yippies :D it's good stuff. hahah
aye....i love my room!
here it is! here is where i've been dwelling and trapped in for the many hours since last week....
aye....so sad tt i m never bothered enuf to take a decent photo of my room...here's the best i can make out of it la...
i especially love my chair! heee...the sine qua non of studying!and i finally brought my cat cushion home from hall! aye. just doesnt feel right to be mugging away without it in my embrace. but it has got a funny smell now...smells like the peach air freshener tt i put in my room....lol
anyway...to that bugger fat arms who calls himself hunk, tight ass tight abs, wadeva good stuff name-able he'll take it. here's my cutie pie! hah. have loads of photos on him in the pc...cuz hez just so adorable and photogenic! unlike other children, he likes the camera!!! bwuahaha.....
he was kindof trapped on the other side of the gate. hah. poor thing eh. lol...he still looks adorable when he is worried! heh
guess wad is he pting at?? a cat!! fat fat cat! hmmm....looking at wad my cousin wore...doesnt it resemble this?
only difference is tt the first is suave and totally sweeps all the girls off their feet, while the second is er...utter gayness. actually, the difference are more than tt. but i shall b kind and not let this "hunk" feel sad cuz he aint as much a lady-killer as a young boy. lol
alright. revenge mission accomplished. hah.
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♥Monday
okies...that's my last post before i totally go into hibernation mode.
heh. stupid flickr. i've been using it for so long, and it's giving me so much problems today! switched the the upload image thing within blogger itself. and, wow, din noe it's so user-friendly!
heee....alrighties....im gone for good! im so dead for my exams la...esp mno and living with chem. and im already dead for ctw, i suck at writing essay-ish stuff la! argh.
on a lighter note. im almost done for maths except for some stupid chapter...haha...that's just to console myself la, i really gonna flunk them this time round. heh.
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♥Saturday
some songs are just able to stir immense emotions in you within a moment, and have them all gathered in a cauldron and as if powered by bursting energy, keep the mixed feelings churning. It pulls wild imagination deep into your brain where you might think to yourself,
you live in this big posh house, with the ideal decos. Outside, the sky coloured black, with a few cute puffy clouds luminated by the moon n floating across the wide sky which seems a tad too lonely if without the twinkling stars.... aye...the rest is just more and more imagination...haha...
haha...the song is just over btw...hee...i've gathered alot of photos since yday...and i wanted to use them to help make my grand last post before i exit for muggerdom. but my hp decided to play on me, the usb cable just doesnt work! dunno if it's e prob of the usb cable itself, or my hp. darns. and i just freaking cant transfer them one by one using bluetooth, no patience.
aights...so let this be a normal post, before i consult my bro for some enlightenments regardg tt. yeapos...it's safra yishun today! and i totally fell in love with their bouldering gym! dont you just love playgrounds! it felt like one there! where you feel so safe with all the mattress nicely piled and a slope leading up to the second lvl with the tiles all around the tunnel! i think i did shriek in joy. bwuahaha...it was an exhilarating experience. leave me there for a day, i'll make it better than good. even just the thought of it leaves a smile on my face! yozzie fun place! haha....dun ask wad does yozzie mean, it's suppose to be "super duper fun" in baby linggo.
aint it a good saturday tt i had? heee...but the sun had to leave me with some ugly tan today. i mean, i dun wanna get tan! lols....will be back with the photo. goodbye till thens! (:
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♥Tuesday
aye...my neighbour got locked out twice today!
haha...she still stuck out of her room now....
aye...i was actually thinking about how capable she is today, when i was somewhere in between blog surfing and studying. straight As, s pprs distinction, touch rugby(now in nus team already!), in nvac, in the eusoff expedition, in IHG, in IFG, in medicine!
gosh...how she manages tt!
aights...actually, i've got nth much to blog....hahah...gdbyez!
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♥Monday
just alil entry before i go study.
went for the mno lecture, and it the first and only lecture that i really paid attention! but it's bcuz they were screening the various CQ videos, which were hilarious, if not, they had damn freaking good animation stuff! guess they outsourced it, but the allister in wonderland thing was one fabulous video! aye...actually, all 4 were good, and climaxed at the last one with the "the pacifiers". in that last video...it reminds me of how we lose our ability to cry as we grow older. we listen, but no longer with genuine care. the group got a team member to play the baby, and his cries were damn weird. it's funny, no doubt. but as a child i cried often(yeah, crybaby la...cuz my brother always bully me! is this how i got my eyebags?) and i was whiny when i cried. but when u grow up, pple no longer seek attention through that method anymore, complicated methods evolved. darn. i just hate growing up!
anyways...he was going through about the short survey we did in the beginning of the modules...came across this question, "in 6 years' time, i will...."
my original ans was sth along the line of being a chemical engineer.
i still maintain tt stand...but now, there are so many other things that share equal standing with it now. life is not just about digging ur way through studies, or graduating with a cert whether it says first class honours or second lower, it's not just about that! guess i've chosen the wrong field of studies in the first place, im not an engineering material, i wouldnt have gone to science too.
if i was not so tightly guided by my parents and sis, i think i wld be working now. be it in a bistro or bookshop, i wont be mugging away. i wont be climbing, i will be playing tennis. hah. im always harping on the tennis bit even though im not good at it. aye. it's just a fun game la. maybe i'll get lance to play w me! so sorry that im always not free to play w him during weekends....haha...
wait till i move to my new home next sem...i can play tennis everyday! at least they've got the tennis wall there when i've got no one to play with! yippies....
aye...back to the 6 years thing...somehow my future seems bleak when im now studying. argh. shall go study now. this entry aint tt short. hah
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♥Sunday
aye...arif! i cant take revenge now! cant bluetooth the gay photo over to my laptop leh!!
haha...anyways...im not gg Kl with the team anymore, i think. haha...since they missed my name out, i shall just give it a miss! haha...furthermore, there is no other junior girls going, and i will definitely inconvenient them when they have to compromise on the difficulty level if they want me to try. haha...i'll try to improve on my climbing first till the next trip, maybe half a year later? lucky that i did not have to spend time convincing my parents to let me go, or else i'll be damn irritated that cyn pangsehed me....bwuahahha....aiya, just excuses to siam a training la.
attended a wedding dinner yday night...quite a feast, so when can i start dieting properly? at least start eating appropriate portions of food instead of succumbing to the temptations of stuffing hell loads of good food down the throat. hahah...good food they were. and my mum bought me lotsa nice food back to hall! heee...and fruits too! hah. exam season is just the perfect time to grow fat eh!
ayes....im so sleepy!
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♥Friday
darn. i woke up two hours ago.
can feel the headache setting in already. hahah....think im going to go under the DO-NOT-DISTURB-ME mode soon...just 2 more weeks to exams! arghhh :(
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aye...wad m i doing here in the wee hours? aye..it's wrong to term 5:34am as wee hours...cuz itis almost sunrise already!
hah. anyways...i finally figured out the surface integral chapt! i mean, i know how to apply the formulas now, though i still cant get all the ans, i'll wait for the solutions to be uploaded! at least sth accomplished for today...though training today totally suck, wasnt on form today ah. no mood for climbing. sighx
aights...ran 30 rounds of tracks last nite, which lasted till this morn! yippies! somemore i was running on the 2nd outermost track! aye...other than the prcs making a fool outta themselves and the girl in track pants with damn squeaky shoes, the run was peaceful, and comfortably slow. buwhaha...yeah, i mean it when i say slow! spent like 1h 20min on it! (compared to mr fat arms, im like a snail, right?) aye....crushed a snail on my way back...stepped on it by the edge! if only i had taken a step slightly further. bahx.
oh hey hey! let me express my heartfelt appreciation here...thanx arif jiwei sheryl tiang vinc jj (who did i miss out eh?) for the pretty presents! haha...so touched! bwuahahha....so pink too! let me try to see if i can wear a pink top, and carry the pink bag, holding the pink bottle in one hand and the pink book in the other. bwuahahaha!! but i have no pink shoes...maybe pink earrings? haha...even so, i wont look anywhere close to a bimbo right? not pretty enuf! (im not as bhb as someone, ahem!) :P
anyways. im in the mugging mood now. hahah..goodbyes for now!
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♥Wednesday
i always have this urge to blog after reading my fren's blog. she is my pri sch fren(same class in pri 2 or sth), then we went to same sec sch(most of us did anyways), then went to sa where i left for ac after first 3 mths. whose bdae is just a day after mine and we live near to each other! if im not wrong, we were both delivered in gleneagles. cool right! yeah...i think we were quite good frens last time, she was the first to bring me to a church(somewhere at cck, i just it as the same church tt my bro's fren goes to), the first fren tt i met who rears cat at home. pretty gorgeous cats! aye...i have no idea how this friendship faded comfortably into memories. while other lingers persistently, tugging ur guilt. argh. im just not a person who can maintain such stuff for long.
aye...studying gets me into such depressing moods! anyways...today, saw her with him, or rather, him with her! haha...shant mention names ah....aye...nvm about that anymore... went to climb after lunch...but fatigue gets the better of me...went back hall to slp after climbing for a while. no progress made today, argh!
woke up feeling groggy. looked at the clock, said 6:23 after snoozing it over and over. and somehow i thought i was late for lessons, when my earliest lessons only start at 8! and it was 6 in the evening for goodness sake. aye...freshened up and went to get dinner. feel so misplaced somehow. even though i've been living here for months already, i felt like a child going to school for the first time in my life, new to the people new to the environment, mal-adapted to the surroundings, and wary about how pple look at you. it's this kind of self-consciousness that makes u feel tired all over again.
anyways....gtg back to my tutorial...
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aights...finally had the climbing board decorated! before jj told us that the board doesnt actually belong to us! hmmm...itis ours now anyways, i hope! anyways, itis nicely done now! yikes! thanx arif my accomplice in crime who instead of doing up the board ourselves, got everyone one else to help! mwuahahhaa...we merely supervised them! whooopies! thanx peeps! we love the board right? we do! itis gorgeous i tell u, so eye catching that pple from all corners will come and take a look at it! :D
yays...went for a jog just now! took the route taken by A1 up to PGP then to south bv, down dark twining road with some cannot-make-it pple trying to do drifting, then past kent ridge park entrance down to haw par villa and back to hall! yeaps...and it was approx 6.8km if i rmmber correctly. this run felt so much better than the wcp one la! which was merely 4.3km....doesnt feel as draining either! mwuahaha...but i miss jogging along the singapore river.....sighx....
hmmm...theres supper for freshies of block A on thurs...hmmm...i wanna go! must zao training on time i guess. but im hungry now!!!! sighx....
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♥Monday
i am suppose to blog every sunday when im home.
but im already back at hostel, away from the comforts of my bed and my dear aircon.
hah.
had climbaprix yday...ill-performed i would say. but wadeva. had a bad start to the day anyway....had s dream about me being kidnapped, again. hah.
and today...had dinner w the team pple at seoul garden at taka. 25 bucks for it! marina south will be a better deal la! aights...but it was a long time since i stepped into orch le...reminds me of the days when i have to go orch every other day in order to go home, and days when i have assignments due, tests nearing, stinking from training and we'll just strut down the lanes of orch. hah.
but now, it's all so different. i have an image to maintain. hah (eh...what image? tomboyish image or square boobish image...hahahah)
oh ya, i din even realise that the condo at rvg is up already! stretching right up into the clouds already! hah. i feel so detached from home!
aye...wanted to blog about how disgusted i felt about this person. but i think i better not. hahaha...anyways...sleepy now. gdnites!
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♥Thursday
been hearing alot of skin deep stuff recently.on the way back to hostel just now, was musing over stuff like appearnace, and how superficial pple can get. (partly also becuz my bro thinks that i think that his gf damn chio....lol...hez ultimate bhb!i'll need his guidance in that)
Suddenly, a weird thought emerged. what if there is no such thing as mirrors, no such thing as reflections. You become what you think yourself to be. You can doubt yourself, hate yourself and live in misery. Or embrace what you are, what you have and be contented. People can judge you, but it is up to yourself to determine what you are. Then again, you need not have to judge yourself, need not let other people's opinions affect you.
And, how did humans come to exist? Other than the Darwin's theory jargon, and God created us jargon. I believe it is all magic that made the world, created life, made earth an interesting place to live in. Despite the torture, the joy and the pain, life is, it is interesting.
note(to arif): finally i've mentioned ur name here! haha...anyway, this entry is just a fleeting thought. so dun bring up the sportlight thing, dun bring up the legs, the fats, the chio, friends-and-family jargon! :p
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he was kindof trapped on the other side of the gate. hah. poor thing eh. lol...he still looks adorable when he is worried! heh
