♥Thursday
went to Zouk yesterday and it was a disaster.
Initially, i wanted to go there to waste myself, and i'll return to my studies properly after that.
I didn't.
cldnt pass off as beyond 20 at dbl o and o bar. ended up at phunk's bar paying 10 bucks. wanted to go butter factory, but couldn't seem to find it. Furthermore heard tt some of my hall pple will be there to celebrate someone's bdae, and that wld be like how paiseh.
so anyway, decided to have our fill since we paid 10 bucks and they only allowed houspours that are mixed with soft drinks! How cheapo can they get! But, because of that, we have the whole floor to ourselves, and we each did our own dance. hahah...i tried what the eusoff DP just taught us this tues! :) i like the Jap Korean Pop dance!
each of us drowned in our own miseries. and were intoxicated by the alcohol. anyways...took a cab down to zouk after tt.
was very crowded, with all the uni pple.
anyway...there was nothing wrong with the crowd, nothing wrong with anything. except that i hope those nus pple i met there din hear my secret. i was talking like how loudly to yipei that i think she heard it! and she knows him! sighx....anyway...
all that i've got to do, is to forget. the puking was horrible enough. really. it was as if turning my stomach inside out, pouring out my organs and my intestines. funny thing is, i think vommitting is a contagious thing. if yipei din puke, i wont and maybe lx wont too!
in the moment of being high and not-so-sober, i msged him! not to confess, dun worry. but i blurt rubbish! lol...after yp said tt she called him, which i now think is false.
yeah, i guess we three were all busy trying to get ourselves drunk, get ourselves to feel horrible in an attempt to forget our him(s).
my him. he is so unlike my ideal guy. i always wanted my ideal guy to be handsome. but he is far from it. but he just captivated my heart. i really dunno what he is trying to do. he seems to be hesitating. not quite like hiding away, cuz frens arnd actually teased about this abit but he did not retract. yet he seems to be taking this like slow? very slow? i'm quite sure he does not perceive this as sth platonic, but he freaking cant make up his mind! so, he likes me? i want myself to think otherwise. i want myself to forget about him and wait till one day he cant forget me! hmph!
ended up feeling all so ugly outside zouk, puking our hearts out.
then met a eusoff hall senior, graduated 2 years ago from fass, name is daryl, from D block.
hahah...that's all i can rmmber of him. yeah, he was quite nice. he didnt mind our stinky puke! i wanna to think of him in a nice way like this, and not otherwise, please.
end up calling my brother to fetch me...and he was so sweet! fecth yp and lx all e way back home...which were like at the ends of singapore!
all that aside, i must study! for the whole of tml!
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♥Monday
havent blogged for quite some time. so i shall speak now.
just finished the climbing camp. been fun, definitely.
and i got much tanner!! :(
sighx...that aside, nothing seems to be moving along.
not my studies for sure.
and i still cant get hold of syz's album!
im stuck in hostel, and i'm directionless.
i am still waiting.
that's all for now. gdnite! shall go catch up on my long forgotten sleep.
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♥Sunday
wow. din know that i din update my blog for over a week!
anyways, i din think this week gone has been much busier than the previous!
but definitely more stressful, yet im just infatuated with my climbing cca.
though i end up having elephant-thick skin on my fingers, and various injuries that mopre seasoned climbers might have(like they cant bend their fingers such that the tip of their finger touches the third segment of the finger)
anyway...i finally bought my running shoe today!
was rather reluctant to do so cuz i have to go alone since no one needs running shoes when they enter uni, and yeah, i was lazy to find company. and i met brandon there! yeah, saved me from the shopping alone since he went alone too! but the point is that i went alone! everybody has got their phobia for stuff, and for me is feeling lonely in a not so lonely crowd. not that im being "too-friendly", but i am scared of being alone in a crowd, ttz why i sometimes find myself talking to strangers. to clarify things, these strangers are somewhat connected to me, ie, when i wanted to go lt27 for the sports AGM, i attempted to enter through the back door, but it was locked. behind me was a second year girl who was late like me. then i ended up talking to her while trying to search for a door to enter from. haha...so anyway, i bought the tennis grip, finally! 10.50 bucks leh...the most expensive one that i ever bought.
heee...and im not going to lend my racket to sweaty palms pple!
then had dinner with yeehui fiona tarynn and yipei at sakae heeren today...
so much have changed. sigh...and we all seemed to have moved on. perhaps itis just because i hadnt been actively keeping in touch with them.
sigh...all in all, well wishes to all! haha...
then went to the all girls dance comp at zouk. went late, missed eunique's performance...pity that they din get the first since there had been rather good reviews about them....anyways...zouk and phuture sucks on sat nites! but it was well spent time with lixiang n yipei, and got to know lixiang's 2 nice frens! haha...which was jsut in time to satisfy yippy's wanting for ny girls....lol...had nice supper at spize, and it definitely taste much better than fong seng!
alrights...i shant go on about what happened in sch...though the problem of A B C D still persist(at least in my perspective). sighx...and there have been training and lessons....a week just flew past, just as i wished. i just hope that the assignment can just be ignored!! sigh...tml shall be my finish-up-the-hmwk day....esp CTW!
and wassup on this coming week!
monday - climbing training(team)
tuesday- climbing(sub comm)
wednesday - climbing training(team)
thurs- things and more things
friday- things and more things
sat-mon - climbing camp
yeah...im feeling very miserable now...havent spoke to my parents for weeks. and my brother too! and when i returned home from hostel late this afternoon, the void deck seemed so unfamiliar. with many new faces around, and i no longer feel secure here.
in life, sacrifices have to be made. and do i need to sacrifice this home for hostel, for the fun, for the supposed more fulfilling life? what makes a life fulfilling is merely to be contented and satisfied with what you are doing. for me, i must do well in studies, sth which is still far from my reach.
oh ya...i found someone who shares the same reason as me for choosing chem engin. that is the good prospective pay! haha...how more superficial can this get. im not sure if i had been successful in telling myself that chem engin is the passion of my life. in whatever case. i shall clear up the mess tomorrow.
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♥Friday
as u can see...im bored!!
hahaha...
totally not in the mood to study...
and not in the correct mood to chat with certain pple...
i wanna go jogging!
oh fine...my ankle hasnt fully recovered. but anyhow, i wanna play!
it's been a long day for me!
had long long dreams, esp the one i had last morn!
critical thinking and writing class for me at 8. then waited for wai outside lt7a while she went to ask her prof some Qs.
went to central forum to get keys from jj. and they have the milo truck there again!
whoopies!
then went back to hostel...
plainly stared into the comp screen while my fingers were sifting through the songs....how i wish i had some ronan keating songs with me! sighx...i think some will lift my spirits up, or maybe sink it even further. anyway...i slept after tt! and ryl came over!
had nice nice tom yam cup noodles!! haha...a very much desired food after not having chance to eat it for months! i love it!
rushed over to FOS...had my living with chem quiz...was quite crappy as the question was vague in itself! haha...funny thing is, when i entered the lt. i looked into shulin & junwei's direction. yet i did not see them! and i walked all the way to the other side of the lt! hahaha...that was how blind i was! shulin even said tt i made eye contact with her! lol...
funny eh...
then...went back to engin at technoedge to chill off while waiting for 4pm to come to meet our mentors!!
and it was at lt5 that i realise i do not know many chem engin pple! perhaps 70 out of 286 of them....but out off the pple who attended today, i saw alot alot of new faces! sigh...time to know pple eh?
yeah yeah...and my mentor was absent! how good huh...then chatted with ky alvin n ky's frens in the lt...and i cant rmmber their names already! sighx...so anyway...met sk n jh n linette outside...talked about ky's joke of the day...hahaa...got caught by the ctw tcher for using the phone thrice! mwuahaha...anyway...we went separate way after tt...walked ky to CFA...saw angie there and shez not coming back for hockey :(
haha...anyway, itis postponed! so so...good for me! but the guys' hockey one is still on! :P
i wanna play sth!
oh well...maybe i jsut wanna go clubbing. hahaha....i've been such a good girl recently and i deserve sth fun! anyways...maybe i shld go do laundary now...hahah...
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♥Thursday
haha...im back to the i-wanna-to-be-with-myself mood again...
school totally gets me into the worst of moods!
sighx...and now my ankle is not yet recovered...i feel that i cant sit still! i wanna go jogging! :(
having a living with chemistry quiz tml...and i have no idea how is the test gonna be like! how long will it take!
gosh...what m i doing in sch? except for sleeping in lecturers, and being late for them...
mno tutorial sucks too! she always end the lesson so late, and i have to run over maybe 1km to get to my class! running with my injured ankle!
and i've been told different stories by different pple! sighx...
i think i shall go watch tv...and not study! mnwuahaha
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♥Wednesday
had vball ibg yesterday....and it totally sucked!!
heh...cldnt serve properly and it was not a very good game la...wasnt much of a to and fro thing...
hahah...so so....i still hope to play vball!
hmph...
and just had netball ibg...i wanted to be GS! but the place got taken up by a senior....haha...i wld have been her standard too. so not much of a difference. somemore my sprained ankle still hurts...
darns...i wanna do sth!! i wanna climb!
i wanna play netball!
i wanna play tennis!
bleah...
i missed today's climbing training la! cuz of my stupid ankle....sprained it on monday...tot it was just a twist...ended up being a sprain.
sighx....
yeah...recently, i've got a story of A B C and D. haha...but itis a secret! lol...according to pple who heard this story, they dun find it interesting la...but i do! cuz im in it! haha...i made myself a character in it....muwhahha....gonna reveal the story soon, i think. maybe a month or so...or maybe a year later or sth...
thats all! :)
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♥Monday
i just did sth that made me wanna LOL at myself.
i chucked my clothes into the washing machine at about 8pm...
thinking that it would be done in an hour, i flip-flopped down to the laundry room and checked it at 9.
nah, not done. maybe i should give it another half an hour? confirm will be done by then right!
check it again at 9.30. still not done! and it said that itis still washing! so i cancelled the washing and made it to rinsing and spinning only.
checked it yet again at 10. and itis done!
opened it lid and shock! why the clothes look so weird!
bwuahahaha...duh, not my clothes la! i din even turn on the washing machine where i put my clothes in!
hahaha...stupid me...anyway...i hate mno! bahx...why is the textbook so like sloman! so boring :(
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♥Saturday
last night was a scandalous night.
didn't expect soleil to be so funky la!! hahaha...so many scandals going on. ok ok, scandal is a wrong word to be used, instead, it should be wonderful lovely fabulous sparkles of love between some of us! actually, 4 or maybe 5. hahaha...of course the 5th one must back out, or eventually get eliminated la....
lol...
let's see how it goes anyway....
hahahaha....after the nus climb comm meeting, went back hall to get changed then went to harbourfront and suppose to met yipei, who was already at gotham penthouse already. saw lynette there, then waited with her for li ling while jun hao came to meet us too.
yeap yeap. so paiseh la...clarke quay suppose to be my area, yet i lost my sense of direction in the mrt station.
anyway...today is chin an's bdae!! hahaha...scandalous. anyway, hope everything works out fine! it seems like wad my sis said is true, chem engin pple end up tgt with chem engin pple. lol....
ya ya...and chin an totally rocks! treated us to a bottle of chivas! though i dun like whiskey, and i dun like green tea, green tea with alcohol always taste nice! :)
yeap...let me keep count....with raggers, i drank a cup of housepour and about half a jug. with soleil, i drank 1 shot, and 3 mix (hahah...mixed 2 of it myself, so whiskey content shld be slightly higher).
yeah...that's bout it.... got slightly high, but not till i become careless with my words.
thankfullyu, i think i've kept myu mouth shut about stuff tt shouldn't be said...but wadeva i've said, i hope it did help with the progress. at least speed it up! hahaha...i cant wait to see wad blossoms from it!
heee....
alrightie...let's see who was the pageant winners...matthew and shu yu!!! hahahah...congrats!
yeah, so sad, i know shu yu, but she doesn't know me. hahaha....at least her twin knows me if that is counted as a consolation. lol...
sigh...the alcohol is keeping me awake..mugging time! :D
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♥Friday
im getting irritated with life...
why isit that i just cant get everything i want in life! as in, be really really happy for a day. to have sth like an ideal happiness?
sigh...sorry for sounding like a spoilt brat. but, yeah, of course there is sacrifices to be made, opportunity costs and stuff. but just one more thing, i can give up other stuff!
today had hocky IBG. lost to block D by 1-0. oh well...we freshies are all new to that game, unlike other players from block D. yeah! so good job A blockers!
then went for dance auditions. din noe that itis such a "wow" thing...i was just going there to play. and getting into the dance team is not one of the thing i wanna get. haha
yeah...please please, just give me that thing. just one more. please...
crap. who m i "please"ing to??
bahx....
tml...hafta wake up early. then i'll have a 4 hour break, before going into a 2 hour sleep in living with chemistry lecture. then, maybe i'll meet the nus climb comm for dinner? then followed by the meeting from 6 to 8. then meet engin pple for bash. or maybe handball IBG at 10. yeah yeah...preferably im going for the engin bash, will be fun eh!
haha...good thing good thing! i just got the orange engin o week singlet, which gonna make great pyjamas! and the red rag and flag t shirt! raggers rocks!@ heee...the t shirts rocks and stones man!
and ya! congrats to kok choy, shing, alvin and matthew for getting into the engin club! heee...i'll be ur loyal supporter!
k k...thats all for today. a nice and rainy day! and finally the first round of hockey is gone, and itis not so scary afterall! :)
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