♥Tuesday
just realised that im the only girl in my class not involved in syf or sports comp during this season.oh ya! and neha too! heh. hence, i will have a full attendence for pe! so dumb lahx...
ac is coming up with this primers thingy...which really sound like odac. canoeing, abseiling, rock climbing. heh. i really feel like joining. but...i cant find anyone to join with me! almsot everyone has their own cca, and are commited to them...
why cant ac just come up with a proper odac?!?!
actually, i think the lack of interaction with sports and physical exercises, im starting to dislike sports... and i can even hurt my knee when trying to get the bball! heh.
i really wonder wad wld have happened if i were to stay in sajc. but im no longer desiring to be back at sajc. cuz i'll hate sch(as in lessons and lectures..) just as much.
my brain is inundated with so much stuff. i really dunno wads happening. bleahx...
dreading sch tml...their having some sports day sorta thing tml...so waste of time...
oh ya...just heard the song "myself" in my mps player. a really nice song :D
nv knew tt i have tt song... :)
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♥Sunday
just blogged yesterday, but im here again!
while i was blog-surfing...reading bout other pple...i cant stop myself from thinking that i lead a very sad life.
having to spend how many torturing hours on stuff that i dont really like, ie econs case study part (c). trying to write the ans when i already know it. making mistakes that i shouldnt have, to make the script look real and display the stupidity of me. thats just so disgusting. so dishonest.
sometimes, i just feel like a total loser...
other pple are aceing in their studies without even studying for the few hours. and i have to wallow myself in self-pity cuz i jsut have to spend so many hours on that subject just to score a F. hah. how pea-brained i am rite!
furthermore, i have to go for tuition!! gp tuition was a total waste of time today. she was suppose to do a real challenging Q that i asked her tt time, but she had twisted the essay Q to "which is more dangerous. Science or religion?". how much easier can this be! all she did was listing down the points, within giving us evidence to substantiate it. totally useless la!
watched the WTA thingy competition just now...
kim clijston against lindsay daveton, dun blame it if i spelt them wrongly. while i was watching, my unlce from uk called, after having no avail in locating my mum, i had a short conversation w him. he actually know who are those tennis players. and me? i dunno any, or maybe just that few.
look at them, how rackets enhanced their movements instead of being a burden. i just wish i can play as good as them. to have the ability to play a real good game.
really cant think of any merit that i possess.
dun think i wanna be architect anymore...kindof persuaded myself that theres no career prospects in that area. yeah...so, wad i wanna be...is to be unemployed! contributing to the rising unemployment rate in spore, be part of the dependent pop. and by then, i hope the govt can give us more welfare benefits, more transfer payments, less GST,.
Actually, that is wad i dread.
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♥Friday
getting totally sick of sch...all those hypocrites, that i once thought they are nice pple. it was gravely wrong.
wrote my very first(or maybe first few) diary entries of this year, yesterday!
but i cant stop complaining...bout my classmates lah!! :(
very stressful lahx!! :( shant mention names here though...
really searching for some playmates though...but of course this is to no avail...
maybe im the source of this lahx...
newayx...
gp common exam is over! freaky econs test is over! maths test is over!
hahaha...din study for maths at all, except for the 5 or 10 min in e morn, but i seem to have done as much as my classmates who studied substantially more than me! hahaha....but...econs! i missed out so many points, so many content, and i think i wasnt making sense at all! all my sentence structures went bonkers...econs terms flew outta my brain...gonna flunk it...
and gp common, can expect to scrap thru or fail by abit lahxx....
neway...interesting events over this weekend! :)
today was interesting though...hahaha...totoro so super duper cute!!! wahhaha...
but spirited away rocks the most...
yestday was zou li's bday...
next week gonna be wai may's daph's and px's bday!! so many!!
bahx...
most of them playing coin soccer nowadayx...and im getting somewhat good at it!
hahaa...although much inferior to taws leow they all lahx...dunno how they flick the coin, and inflict such excruciating pain on ur knuckles lahx!
hahah...
gtg...ciaoz :)
ohya!
hafta thank ms chiang po lin for ending our day in such a relaxing way!! ahhaha...though we were super unproductive and disruptive and annoying during that last 2 periods of the week!
yeap...horrifying video clips taken in afghanistan...
why cant they jsut overthrow the taliban weirdos!
why must they be contained within their perversed mindset, and why must so many of them submit to though outrageous practices!
yeah...spore may be in some way similar to them too. dogmatic in a sense, but jsut in a diff form. perhaps, they are just used to that lifestyle, just like sporeans (most of us) being used to spore, the mores and the norms...thats why thats why!!
and spore being ranked the 147th among 167 countries in the RSF -Reporters Sans Frontier? sth like tt lahxx- bout the freedom of expression thing. true, spore may have removed the license of a few publications cuz of "wrong" reporting...but i feel that we are actually free to write stuff that we want! at least insignicant civilians like me are able to :)
i really wonder where is afghanistan in the rankings lahxx...
newayz....shall really go off le! :)
really feel like drawing sth, but ive lost all the inspirations. ahhaha. o poor me :(
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♥Monday
today is the day that pw results were released. with a shocking element in it, some pple i expect to get band 1 din. How can my group not have anyone getting band one!?!! same w siran's group!! why?? px jm eug and taws were all so good!
today is the day, when 18 years ago, on this very fateful day, they were welcomed to earth, gasping for air as they sucked in their very first breath while wailing their hearts out, making the first audible shriek piercing the ecstatic hearts of their mothers. hahaha...happy bdae yh and jm!! :)
today is the day when the casino thing is finally given the green light. but i doubt its success. this has really taken an extreme turn, from violent objection just a decade ago, to an approval of two casino within this tiny singapore that we dwell in. how can this small island cope with 2 casinos? so what if there are jobs created, they are low end jobs afterall! ya ya...the mpc thing, low income pple tend to spend almost all their income on consumption, boosting the AD. then? ec growth? then? wouldnt it lead to vulnerability of spore? spore can be easily be crushed by other nations when the tourist flow comes to a halt, all these revenues can just vanish overnight! we must be self-sustained! okay, even if the world finally come to terms with a live-at-peace-for-eternal-life agreement, how can this compensate the social ills accompanied. higher crime rates, pple obssessed with the short term windfall and becomes listless during work. nevertheless, im in absolute agreement with the go ahead for casinos in spore. at least im a tiny gambler! :D i mean, 2 bucks bets during cny. doubt i'll never go any higher than that for the time being. mahjiong, anyone? :P
but seriously, considering how small spore is, how big a casino can they build on the reclaimed land at marina bay and at sentosa??
i suppose they would either build a world class casino, or just forgot the whole thing rite! why opt for a lousy grade when u can afford the better?
im done with that.
i cant stop complaining bout life.
being skeptical towards life. i'm not enjoying myself.
sighx...
neways, chapel was rather interesting today. seem extraordinarily short, but this chapel session was as if itis a self-praise session for that j4 person.
heh.
econs test on thurs...but first, theres gp.
really cant fail econs, but i think i'll fail anyway...
bleahx...heck care bout other pple for tml and wed, i shall study study study for econs!
ya...and for the whole of today, i wrote 16 april 05 on all my ws, i really tot today is 16. heh. nvm, 6 and 8 kindof look the same.
haha...
oh ya! one last thing!
today is the day that tan cc wasnt here for econs lesson!
mwahahaha...
hope the wadeva whoever minister or permananent secretary wadeva person screwed her up! (not in that that sense)
neway...i hope not to see her again. drama queen. bleahz. -im building castles in the air..-
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♥Wednesday
tan cc finally replied...
and...she is like trying to accuse me of getting the wrong msg and accusing her bout the target thing... which obviously is bcuz she just swallowed her own words la!!
im 100% sure that she told me to set some targets for the next econs test(next week) and all the following tests and exams, and if i'm not able to reach any of them, i must drop econs. i even clarified that with her la! im sure that i asked her sth like this, "i really need to write the letter of undertaking, spelling the grades that i aim for for the following test, and if i cant achieve them, i must drop?". and she said tt i have to do that!!! and she even said, "or else write a love letter ah".
freak her lah...
ate up so many of her words. deprived of food isit? must resort to eating ur rubbishy words to fill ur universe-big stomach? too bad... maybe u r meant to live a life where u are left unattended for the rest of ur life! unmarried too! :P
kayz...i shant be so mean.... :)
i might end up seeing u-tancc- at the old folks' home eh?
and kt was talking bout the nkf show...as if sayign that he is so so rich, so so generous to be able to part with his precious money to donate to the needys.
but wad else can he do but he did not?
hez so materialistic lahx!! keep on talking bout money blah blah..
how bout offering some direct help to them? without any middleman aka bloodsuckers?
bleah....very buay song with those 2 tchers...but i guess i'll be at peace with them once i leave ac...
sean tan been sick for how many many days... hooray! :D
and fab soong makes me feel as if theres nothing to prepare for tml's physics test!! wads there to study? read thru the notes like once, which is more than enuf, and so ultra boring...
blearghz....
didnt have tennis today...how boring...
and the other ccas are just so meaningless. wont delegate stuff for pple to do, cuz im sure i'll criticize bout their work, while i dun think i'll be as offended when they criticize mine... weird me...
and the chain of tests next week.
kt's maths quiz, maths test, phy spa, econs and gp...
blahx...itis like an unofficial term exam lah!! cant imagine we were actually delighted over this, ignorant of these tests replacing term exam.
nose is leaking again... maybe im allergic to hamsters? but i've had them for like over a decade??
feeling so old. so spent. so old foggie... bleahz
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♥Sunday
played tennis today! :D
woke up late, and my mum wasnt at home, so i din eat breakfast. hahaha...instead, i poured more acid into my stomach lahz!! (twas only orange juice :D)
neway...tennis rocks!! i so so so love tennis! :)
will be really sad if they kick me out of the tennis recre lahz...
sighx...
played w CO-pres penguin n eug. hahaha...they are all music geeks! one piano pro-er and electric guitar amateur, the other guitar pro-er and erhu(isit?) pro-er too, the last, erhu pro-pro-pro-pro-er. hahaha...me? null! nothing! kosong! void! =x
all of them whack the balls so hard, so difficult for me to return, esp when im not that good at tennis lahx...
eug was like using his golf stokes in tennis, so funny lah. gave leonard lotsa heart attack lahx...and the ball actually flew out like twice or thrice. hahaha...
guess wad! i think i finally mastered the serve! whee.... dunno why. but i seem to serve better when i jump and whack the ball. perhaps that gives me the correct correct for my short frame(relative to the tennis-pro ang mohs). i hope i look like a pro though! :D
and lance was like saying tt when i do my backhand i look like the sara-blah-blah person? i still have no idea whois tt, but supposedly shez a russian tennis player? hmmm....
aiya...wadevaz
looking fwd to tennis on wed! :D
whee.... hope it doesnt rain, and hope that i have a place to play tennis! :)
took freaking long to re write the gp essay tt i just failed. think im going to fail it again lahx...
bleahx...
feeling to unaccomplished, except for the tennis part :D so fun!
will start chionging tml.. :) esp when my classmate started doing the tut for food chem! argh!!
the Pope passed away...weird that they din even mention bout it during devotions. heh...but glad that time dedication most of the pages to him. so interesting. reminds me of dan brown's angels and demons...cool...
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♥Friday
was going home and crossing the road to get home...
was standing parallel to the flow of traffic, and the traffic light on the left turned red, now im just waiting for the right one to turn red. but just when it turned red and the green man appeared, the cars on my left started moving again! first, the car moved, and the lorry driver followed! and due to their slow rxn, they actually ended up in the middle of the T junction.
juxtaposing this scenario with those in life, they are actually very similar! everytime, people will attempt to push themselves forward, trying to gain that trivial 0.01s ahead of others. let that be kiasuism, but it is not only restricted to singaporeans.
seem to see much of those in school too. getting on my nerves, but have to live with it. let the fren epitome of that "kiasuism" be A. A will tell everyone tt he/she din do the hmwk, din have time to prepare blah blah blah. but wad u would see is that he/she is very well-prepared for lessons... 'tis really so irritating...and A wouldnt care if u cant grasp the concept of this topic, and wont bother much to ans ur Q...but A will make sure that he/she gets pple attention so as to clear his/her doubts bout the Q...
and this horrendous behaviour of pple keeps getting worse as we grow older. so so so frustrating! :( fish mongers everywhere!
tan cc and kt have kindof stopped pestering me, this phenomena is consistent for bout 3 or 4 days already. whee!! :)
playing tennis tml :) hope it doesnt rain!!
hmmm...since ive complained bout the ubiquitous fish mongers, i shall elevate myself away from it :D i shall openly say that im going to catch up with all my tutorials over the weekend esp nmr and the tut on loci, and alot alot of econs, and i shall keep physics tuition in mind, have been not-so-purposely ponning alot of it. sounds like alot of work eh? oh ya! and hafta re write the essay :(
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♥Saturday
this game is gonna be long. i dont noe how much more till i reach the end, the Nirvana.
but it is going to have a good ending, i can assure that.
i must learn how to go through it without fear, but with fortitude. I must I must!
i will NOT take the setbacks too seriously, just have fun, for it is just a game. with just one try. i will succeed!! :)
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