results coming out soon. so what? sighx...it'll be pleasant if i see a few "A"s there. if there isnt any? or maybe a few "D"s and "E"s? yeah. so what?
took 51 this morn from eunos...initially, i intended to drop at the eunos mrt stations which was only 2 bus stops away, but i hadnt got a chance to really sit on a bus since i started working. yeah, i sat and i sat.... past the geylang area, which i tot im familiar enuf to drop there and change to some other bus, but i didnt. past the kallang area where i could take 32. chased that thought all the way till the bus route diverted at funan. anyway, wanted to drop at holiday inn there, near my 1st 3 mths classmate's hse and walk home. instead, i dropped at a bus stop which is quite in the middle of nowhere. i chose to do that when i was in my heels, which was by then, highly uncomfortable. not as good a walk home as i expected, no more morning breeze, and didnt see any pple jogging...
yeah...when i was on the bus, i was thinking. i was imagining that im a tourist in spore, and those shophouses along geylang really looks interesting! i even have an urged to drop at that bird shop near my hakka clan area. but, i still hadn't had a chance to fully pretend tt im a tourist....
hmmm...i wanna go slp. a good nite sleep, and a late morning that i can wake up in, feeling that i've wasted my morning. sometimes, it can be such a luxury to feel that u are wasting sth. sounds sinful isnt it. haha...jsut like today, with fio yippy and yeehui...8 hours simply flew past! and we were slacking most of the time! haha...but i love the time at esplanade library the most. cuz of the wonderful aircon and the pretty sun rays penetrating the tall glass panels...who dares to say that singapore doesnt have wonderful scenery!
sigh...dunno why, but i always end up comparing. now, comparing spore's scenery with anywhere else's. im kindof sick being a mortal, not that im certain that being an immortal might make my life much happier. but i guess, we all need some changes in our lives.
for now...i cant wait to have my own room. but, i might just be taking a huge disappointed soon. i might not take over my sis's room, maybe my bro will nag, maybe i cant get to choose to paint the walls, maybe i cant get to shift the furniture, maybe i might get the room after all the musings...i've really been thinking alot about how i wanna do up the room!
sighx....i can forsee a sea of disappointments that i may have to swim through. not getting satisfying grades, falling short of the high hopes tt family pinned on me, and pple arnd blabbering on about the grades, i seriously cant and dont wanna remember which comp i choose, which questions i left empty, which answers that i gave such ridiculous answers....maybe there will be torrents, i may have to struggle, fighting to stay afloat amidst the towering waves. and maybe i might just drown.
okok...time to slp....may my subconscious mind create pleasant dreams for me. i wanna make the fantasy world real. but, maybe itis myself that i need to change, not the pple and stuff around me. but itis in human's nature to manipulate others rite? be it the environment, landscapes, or pple, family. in my opinion, either change urself or leave them all together. yeah, easier to be said than done. hah. im really blabbering.
