listening to S.E.N.S. - 04. Wish ~ Piano. reminds me of the studying and mugging for exam days when i instinctly plug the earpiece into my ear. Then, i wasn't troubled over stuff that i thought i will be bothered about, thinking that i'm young. Young but wanting to grow up. im sure everyone went thru that phase, and still is going through it. when im 4, i wanna be 10. when im 10, i wanna be 16. 16, 18. 18, 21. 21, 35? hahah...i guess thats end, the next honourable and respectableage is probably 65? hahah...then i'll have to wait 46 more years!!
oh ya. and james blunt's songs! i was crazy over then during the A lvls period...when i vacillated between 93.8 (the bbc news) and james blunt, esp goodbye my lover. that song is so conducive for studying even though i cant help but sing along w it! haha...yeah, i had my own room to study, with the doors shut, so my bro n mum weren't in any form of torture.
how i struggled to memorise names, dates, events, statistics for gp. how hard i tried to read sloman but still unable to get past reading 10 pages in total. haha...hope my cousin has put it to better use. how hard i tried to study, i only end up reading the notes and making my own notes. hahah....i really do feel guilty spending money on those topical tys, yet they are still so clean. those tys that comes with detailed answers below the questions are simply so much more user-friendly!
in the evening, i will stare into the sky, looking at the setting sun which was partially blocked by the two blocks of buidlings just 50 metres away. and my brother would enter the room to kajiao me, like intermittent rain, unpredictable, and sometimes annoying. then, i will think of the scene in wimbledon, and scenes from another movie where they showed them jogging. of course, the female movie stars wore tight track pants, showing off great bods. hahah...i wld get so tempted to go jogging!
most indelible was the day of my bdae! when wai ryl n robs came over to my hse to celebrate my bdae! when i recieved the pretty bottle of candy, and a pretty box filled with nice nice stuff! and the earrings made by robs! simply wonderful! hahaa....that was the day when all i cld manage was a couple of mcq papers. and i did with amazing speed(so tt i wld have time to check it over n over again) haha...and the yummy cake tt my bro got from the cake shop near my house.
hah. anyway...i was just thinking, why must i get myself all so aggitated at every point of my life! grow up! grow out of all the dumb brain-straining worries! easy to say than done.
i wish i can just click archi, ID , chem engin for nus. then aero, acc for ntu. maybe i'll do just that when i have enough guts to let my curosity rule my life, then letting the possible regrets lead my decisions.
before this, i was worrying about the results. all the what-ifs. even before that, was the job and stuff. precedent to that was the studying stuff... the list goes on and on, and even longer if i get into every detail...
sighx...anyway, i got excited over recieving 4 letters! those type of letters that grown-ups recieve!! mwuahaha...2 from CPF, 1 frm NTU and 1 from UOB. haha...glad those nothing involving debt and pay-up stuff.....but im sure there'll be a day when i get sick of recieving them, and having to tear envelope to retrieve the letter inside. i might just end up tearing the package into half and piece the torn letters together. or maybe, i'll be adroit enough to tear off the side to get the letter out.
anyways anyways. had a great swim today! mwuahahah...and i bought a book yesterday!! man and boy! a nice cover and i believe it has wonderful contents awaiting me! :D
