alrightie...so after that camp...i spent somemore days in spore before going to hong kong...
im really lazy to blog about my history already...
so i'll blog wad i wanna say! fine, im just blabbering...
so, anyway....im lost for words already...been thinking quite abit about stuff recently, but just nothing significant to be mentioned here....bleah...maybe i shall just read my book! and be a book worm!
darns....bbl
i wonder...isit just me or does everyone wants to get one more chance.
one chance to start life all over again.
undo certain things...
i've always been wanting more and more, never satisfied with wad i have! and this song im listening to make me feel even more so!(chen qi zhen's ziu fen de ka fe dian)
and now...i really feel lost amidst the many things to be done, or things i ought to do and wanted to do...
(1) appeal for hostel. and also face the fact that only a small number of pple get a place at hostel thru this
(2) apply to pay my fees thru CPF
(3) make sure i wont miss all the impt dates regarding nus stuff(my med check up is on 7 july!)
(4) sign up for odac camp
(5) stuff and more stuff
obvious as it is, most of it revolves around school!
sometimes...i just wish im back at my secondary school days....much nerdier....probably skinnier though(:D)...maybe small fights with my fren, undo the very last cold war we ever had and be frens again...
sometimes...i think i'm a spoilt brat (i hope my bro dont read this, he'll definitely nod his head till it drops) i get damn frustrated when things dun go in my way.
or m i just an angsty teenager...not quite a teenager anymore actually....
though im born in 1987, suppose to be 19 this year..
i think i still lack alot of skills at handling things that a 19 should be able to.
so, tell me. should i feel frustrated now?
yeah, it's me, cant stop dwelling at my own weaknesses.
i was at hongkong, and this lady told me i had this sunny and happy smile on my face. how true was that? was i ever happy? what is happiness when it cant be remembered and especially when smiling becomes such a natural thing to do such that none of them is real anymore!
dreats...call that life. MY LIFE.
i remember having those forward mail where u r suppose to talk about urself....those were the secondary school days...when i was more confident of myself (i think), at least i answered that i was optimistic then(when they ask question like: do you think u are more optimistic or pessimistic). now? definitely pessimistic trying hard, too hard, to be optimistic!
just got wai's sms....was trying to ask her to get her og mate to go with me to appeal...really dun wanna go alone. i really hope i wont need to go alone then. and definitely not miss the deadline! just that now, i dunno if i should appeal for which hall! i think i really have problems trusting pple....unless i'm desperate for opinions la....
sighxxx.....anyway....bye for now!
