in these moments of silence. u imagine yourself throwing your head back into the bed of pillows. in an alien place but with very much familiar and comfortable setting. imagine yourself imagining.
i want to walk by my hands, together with my frens, and recieve applause from the crowd. i want to be back to my younger days, watch sweet november and love me if you dare all over again. i want brim with joy, like a kid, when given a beautifully wrapped packet of candies. i want to sit on a couch in a empty living room, carpet underneath, legs wrapped in my arms, cereal box loosely clutched in my left hand, or the other, and watch a random movie pulled out of random shelf in a random movie rental shop. i want to walk the streets, taking snapshots of anything, anyone, and tell myself, i am free.
then you realise, you are merely drifting further away from reality, and i cant have them all.
aye...havent blogged for eons. lost the inertia to do so. oh well...after boulderX my usual blabberings will return i guess. boulderX will be so fun. it will feel like a carnival. another happy gathering. ayes...back to earth i go, to speak in matlab language.
